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Day 02: 他给我的强心针...

Encouragement of the day: Life's short and i hope to spend my lifetime with someone whom i admire, love most. 你一直以来都有给我心跳的感觉...

9.25am
I guess my parents already know about it. Luckily my parents are v understanding and they din probe or mention anything and gave me ample space to space out on my own at home. Except that i'm being forced to eat abit.

He called me yesterday night @1030.
D (him): "What you doing now?"
*i'm feeling groggy as i've just been woken up by his call*
K (me): "Sleeping. But woken up liao."
D: "Eh. You not working meh, your sis's biz?"
K: "No mood. Don't feel like doing anything so just sleep lo."
D: "How come u r not on msn today? R u at work?"
K: "Yupz. But I just dun want to talk to anyone so kept myself invisible."
D: "I just wanted to tell u that i'll be going down to XXX Co to sign my offer letter tmr."
K: "Oh. What time?"
D: "After work tmr"
D started naming all the benefits entitlement...
K: "Ic. Good la. To me, XXX Co is just a stepping stone. And since they offer contract, chances are hard to convert to perm without headcount from HQ. Prolly can look for a better job in few months time."
D: "... So how r u today? what did you do today?"
K: "Same as yesterday. Had my farewell lunch today, a treat from my colleagues."
D: "Ic... ok la. i'm tired, i'm going to sleep."
*i tried to be more alert*
K: "So what did u do today?"
D: "Same lo... work lo."
K: "So did u miss me?"
D: *paused for a moment* "hmm... i guess abit la... I'm going sleep liao... nite"
K: *paused for a moment* "hmm... Ok bye..."

Few moments later... i received an sms from him...
D-sms: "Actually i call you today is because today is v day. nite..."
K-sms: "Love u Dear. Happy V Day... Just wanted to tell u that my farewell lunch is at cafe cartel and it reminded me of the last time we went there. I miss u alot... muackz"

I'm feeling more positive since he called me. But i dunno is it because he's afraid i may do anything dumb? Or he loves me?

I slept very well yesterday night... and had a hope for a twist of events. I really really hope this cooling period won't last too long... I've been on the runs even though i din eat much. My body on self-detox program? I'm kind of feeling abit dizzy though...

昨天我不断的在回想我们四年所做的事所说过的话. 你曾对我说过的话...

从现在开始，我只疼你一个。
我会宠你，决不会骗你。
答应你的每一件事情，我都会做到。
对你讲的每一句话，都是真话。
不欺负你，不骂你，会相信你。
有人欺负你，我会第一时间出来帮你。
你开心的时候，我会陪着你开心；
你不开心，我也会哄得你开心。
永远觉得你最漂亮，做梦都会梦见你。
在我的心里，永远只有你一个。

你还记得吗?

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1.17pm

我现在有种快要窒息的感觉... 为什么你要我潇洒的放弃? 我相信这一切都是因为我们太过于实际, 没尽全力在这段感情, 而酿成的结局.

我错了... 我没顾虑你的感受, 老是要你跟着与我的步伐, 前进我所要的未来... 在我被我要的未来蒙住时, 我一直都是忽略你的.

你错了... 你没顾虑我的感受, 老是把心思放在工作上, 忽略我们之间的感觉, 把我当成理所当然的, 但我相信 i do have a placement in your heart...

一段感情的成与败, 最主要的是两方面都用心思, 不必花费太多时间, 金钱, 只要是两个人都很认真的对待与尊重彼此, 在加上处处为彼此着想, 就算很成功了.

我们还能不能有多一次的机会呢?
我永远永远也不要在犯这样的错误了... 因为我知道你对我很重要...

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2.51pm

MSN Log

[14:21] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: 3 weeks very fast will pass....
[14:21] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: i gtg liao
[14:21] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: anyway i not in office now...
[14:21] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: i can't take it anymore
[14:21] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: indeed i think i do miss u
[14:21] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: i really can't
[14:21] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: relax....
[14:22] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: treat it i on overseas assignment
[14:22] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: i cant relax
[14:22] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: i so afraid
[14:23] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: ...
[14:23] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: treat it as giving me a holiday leave for 3 weeks
[14:24] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: wat if u do not come back from the 3 weeks holiday leave?
[14:24] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: give urself more confidence
[14:25] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: 我每天都在胡思乱想
[14:25] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: before 3 weeks is up... i think i'll go crazy already
[14:26] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: pls... we talked it clearly
[14:27] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: 我并没有那么坚强, 我根本就不能忍受两三个星期
[14:28] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: relax... give urself more confidence.... who knows i might reply u earlier than 3 weeks
[14:29] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: 你明白我每一天都过的心惊胆战吗?
[14:31] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: just give urself more confidence... i prefer the kelyn that we talked through that night
[14:33] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: my confidence just go down every second... n i can't help it... even if u prefer the kelyn on v day's eve... i can't really help it... if u think i'm v fine now, in actual fact i'm not... i'm beginning to understand how gloria feels now...
[14:35] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: i'm thinking alot... i'm so afraid that if we really go separate ways n i see u holding other gals hand... dun think i can take it at all... i feel the heartbreak physically now
[14:35] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: pls we talked it through...
[14:35] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: dun pressure me now
[14:36] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: i must admit i do miss u these few days... i also broke my own promise by calling u yesterday
[14:36] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: we shd not be in msn now
[14:37] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: pls relax and dun do anything stupid...
[14:37] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: we might be together afterall
[14:37] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: right now i just want to find back the feelings myself
[14:38] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: if u do love me, i'm sure u will protect me... the truth is i'm definitely not doing good right now...
[14:39] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: and yes, i do remember my promises to u... willl that make u happy
[14:41] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: i took up a lot of courage to propose this 3 weeks... it also hurts me alot... but i know this will be better for the both of us
[14:42] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: i gtg le...
[14:42] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: pls dun cry...
[14:42] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: i prefer the kelyn who has confidence and always with that smile and giggle
[14:44] Kelyn@msn (A) 你的承诺, 你还记得吗?: i'm already crying alot... if u really think i can hang on longer, no i can't... nvm... u go do ur things first... bye
[14:44] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: bye
[14:45] davidtanlt@hotmail.com: muackz

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强心针的大结局:
6.02pm接到"动物园鹿"的电话约我在cityhall见面, 真的好开心, 终于能见到"鹿"了... 当晚, 我们一起去看"门徒", 然后你在送我回家, totally estatic!!! 但那天我是真的好累了. 我也终于能够不用哭着睡觉...

posted by Panda @ 10:25 AM